Things I Ponder....

I'm not ashamed to admit that I have a borderline obsession with the Sandra Bullock/Jesse James marital situation. I love her...and I like him (cause he's got all of those tattoos...LOL) and I just don't get it. True, I don't know her....I've just seen her movies, read interviews, that kind of stuff. I have seen very little of him besides Monster Garage, etc. But what I can't get my brain around is why on God's earth would he cheat on her? Okay, I know it's still in the "alleged" phase, but I just don't get it. Is it possible that she's a complete troll in her personal, private life and he had to get it elsewhere because he couldn't stand her anymore? Or is he one of those types that has to have attention 24/7 and marital vows be damned. If you aren't around to pay attention to me I'll just get it elsewhere. Nice....

From what I've read he was an "alleged" serial cheater. So that begs the question, "Why the fuck did you get married?" I really don't understand that. I know why men cheat. I could probably write a book on that. Ego, not enough attention, drank too much, didn't think anyone would find out, or they just don't give a shit. What I can't figure out is why men who stray get married in the first place. Isn't monogamy kind of the whole point to marriage? I could forgive a one time mistake but over and over? That's a little different. That means you don't give a shit if what you're doing is wrong and while you are continually telling your wife you love her, you're fucking around on her when you have the chance. Very nice!

I think if you get married, you have to be in it for the long haul. It's not going to be easy, pretty or nice. There are going to be more days when you can't stand each other than like each other. And if you're anything like me, you're going to love your spouse a hell of a lot more than you like them on certain occasions. I hope any marriage that faces hardships can survive. You put a lot of yourself into a marriage whether you're married for 5 years or 50 years. I think it's something you have to work on every day. Marriage is a choice; so is fidelity. Still, if all of the rumors are true, I hope Sandra Bullock divorces his piece of shit straying ass. She deserves better; all women do. But if she chooses to stay, I'll be the last one passing judgement on either one of them for staying together. I think staying takes a hell of a lot more guts than leaving. Forgiveness is just as important for the forgiver as it is for the forgiven. Maybe this will be the best thing that ever happened to their marriage (after multiple STD tests for her) and they'll move on stronger than before. Or maybe it will be the best thing that ever happened to her and she'll find strength in herself that she didn't know she had and be able to leave him in order to do what's best for her. There are kids involved and that must be difficult. I'm a stepmom and I love my stepkids just as much as I love Paige. I don't know if I could make a clean break and feel good about walking away from them. No matter what she does, it's a tough situation. I don't envy her one bit. I've been cheated on and I've reacted differently each time it happened; I stayed with one, left the other.

I don't know why I'm bothered by this. I feel bad for her because she seems like such a nice person and I loved that she looked past his appearance (tattoos, porn star ex wife, two previous failed marriages) and found her soulmate. I hope things work out best for her, whatever that may be.

Wow - that's some deep shit. Let me close with conversations with Paige to lighten the mood:

Paige: Hey Gammy, do you know my daddy doesn't like to get up in the morning?
Gammy: No...I didn't know that.
Paige: Yes, he'll get up and tell me to wake up and then he gets back in bed and has sexy time with Eddie.
Gammy: Okay....

Eddie is our dog and to the untrained ear, that could be quite a conversation to eavesdrop on :)

Paige: Mommy, do you know who Pontius Pilate is?
Me: Yes, I do.
Paige: I kind of like him.
Me: Paige! (look of horror on my face) He wasn't a very nice man to Jesus. I don't think you really want to tell people you like him.
Paige: Well, I like Jesus and Mary sometimes. And that woman who cries all the time.
Me: It's good to like Jesus and Mary...let's focus on them more and Pontius Pilate a little less.
Paige: Okay.

She goes to Catholic school so they talk a lot about Religion this time of year (duh). Last year she told us robbers were going to come into the house and steal us and then give us new life. That was her interpretation of the Resurrection. Priceless...absolutely priceless the things that come out of her mouth.

Happy Thursday to everyone. Gary's birthday is tomorrow and he's going to Mens State this weekend with his posse. Good Luck to everyone cooking this weekend.