Lack of Motivation Today......

I'm not feeling it today. Yeah, yeah...what makes it different from any other day :) I've actually produced work today...and I need to get back on the ball here in a few. I'm just taking a break. I cannot get any sleep. I try and it just doesn't happen. Gary woke me up at 3:30 am because of his hand - that a nail found it's way into yesterday afternoon. I convinced him to go to the ER since neither of us could remember the last time he had a tetanus shot. He went to the Ennis Hospital (don't if you're dying...or want to live, really. This is the same hospital that told him he was fine when in fact he had a blood clot. But, this is also the same person who had a heart attack, checked himself out and lit up in the parking lot, so there ya go) and they x-rayed his hand (it was fine), gave him a tetanus shot, and RX for antibiotics. He's not in as much pain today as he was last night, but he's still in some serious pain. Poor guy. Eddie was SERIOUSLY jacked up when Gary left. He laid on his pillow...kept going to the door....whined. Seksi lurves his Daddy :)

I took Paige to get her hair cut yesterday and it turned out soooo cute. The girl did a wonderful job and it looks so good. I need to get her signed up for swimming lessons ASAP.

I'm planning a surprise anniversary trip for my husband. First of all, he knows because I slipped up and told him...mainly because I can't keep secrets from him and secondly, I didn't tell him exactly where or what. Lastly, he never reads my blog. He relies on some guy named Manske to call him and tell him when I've gone off about something. Or sometimes people come up to him at cook offs and then he comes in search of me to ask me, "what have put on your blog now?" But anyways, I digress. I'm super, super excited about what I've planned and I know he's going to love it. I just hope I can keep my trap shut until we leave.

I guess I could go off about my hubby's ex wife and piece o'crap cousin, but I really don't want to get drug into court over slander :) All I'm going to say is this: if you've been divorced for nine years and you're still an active pain in the ass, you need to get a friggin life. Seriously. Do something about the premature female balding, go out on a date, and MOVE ON. I have literally not spoken to the woman in two years - I refuse. I was either going to have a stroke or end up in jail and I just had to stop. You cannot reason with an idiot - it's impossible. And the thing is - I know most ex wives do not act like her. Most of them are normal, have moved on and don't find a reason to call/email/text the ex spouse daily about mundane non issues. I just don't get it. Okay, I'm done. I'm moving on to my next uncomfortable topic...

OMG!!! I don't have one! I'm going to keep my mouf shut today. Well, sort of...maybe....undecided.

Monday, all hell breaks loose. We will be starting 29 DISD schools. Our summer looks on target to be a very, very good one full of jobs with an assload of profit in them. We need to perform this work for 40% of our bid. Scary thing is...we can. Believe it or not, we know how to selectively demolish anything. Wrecking....uh no. That's not such a good idea for us. We lost our asses two years ago on a complete wreck and we're still trying to crawl out of it. I flip off Richland High School anytime I drive by it...and the Birdville ISD. But anyways, we're going to be busy and hot and cranky for about three weeks, then everything calms down. Our guys have to work in schools that have no A/C. Yep, the genius operation that is the DISD cuts off the air to their schools in the summer.

Last night, Gary requested "meat" for dinner. Gary, Paige, Bubba and I ended up at Texas Land and Cattle...the one on Lemmon Ave. Gary looks at me and asks me what I want for an appetizer. I kindly remind him that I'm not really eating this type of food right now. His response? "They have fish."

Thanks, Lord Brignon.

I ended up with a small filet (I shared it with P), salad, steamed spinach and mushrooms. I also ate my meal sans wine. Gary had a glass of Penfolds Cab-Shiraz blend. I smelled it. I think I might have drooled in his glass, too. I drank water..with lemon. Wow. Seriously, though - I don't mind my excessive water intake or my Jenny Craig meals. I had my fave today - the turkey burger. I found fat free pepper jack cheese and added that to it. I also love, love, love the grapefruit cups you can pick up in the produce section at the store. They only have 60 calories and no fat. I've been adding a hard boiled egg (80 calories) for extra protein and it's made a difference with hunger. My metabolism is surprisingly high...which means I was eating ENTIRELY too much food to begin with. I'm still staying within my 1200 daily calories by knocking out wine and my approved late night snack even with the extra calories from the egg. Paige is just like her mommy...she could live on hard boiled eggs. I could live on eggs, period. They're delicious. Egg salad, in tuna, in salads, by themselves, in giblet gravy...oh no...I feel Food Porn coming on :)

I guess I've rambled on long enough today. I hope everyone has a great weekend. My mom and I have a Canton trip planned Saturday. Paige has declined to attend. She is more interested in staying home with her dad, her brother and his friends. Gary's going to have his hands full!!! Paige loooooooves boys.....

Spreading my own special brand of kindness and joy....

Kelly